Saturday, December 13, 2008

clean clean!

I just completed my annual spring cleaning! Okay, maybe this is the first spring cleaning I've ever done.. BUT it's gonna become annual! And I do realise that this probably better qualifies as winter cleaning... hmm.. BUT BUT BUT! The point is, my room is now. SPACIOUS. Like having more space than things. Hahahas..

I think I junked out somewhere about half of my possessions. Things which I don't know why I kept until now. Sec 3 QA test tubes! CAN YOU IMAGINE. I keep for what sia? Then there were tonnes of letters from Prudential stuff and DBS and all..

Man, if I ever get the chance to stay on my own in the future, I won't ever clog up my place like this man. Luckily Ma wasn't around to pick back the things that I threw. Hahahas.. And now it's too late because I already emptied the bin into the chute! =P

Anyways, I'm gonna like go to Melacca for a few days.. Doubt I'll be very much needed cos everyone's like busy meeting people or working these days.. But don't miss me all the same! =)

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

I couldn't really sleep yesterday night after I got awoken again by an SMS. I just kept having thoughts of my grandmother dying...

Back on Saturday night my auntie was talking about how she wanted to get a GP to certify the death if it happened. I don't know how can they talk about it so candidly. Yes, I know it's just a matter of time. But is there no respect? It's almost as if they are just waiting for it to happen. I know they don't wish it but I just felt really really weird listening to the conversation.

And how would I react when it really does happen?

Somehow I haven't been able to shake off this downcast feeling ever since I came back from aussieland. It's a combination of factors. But there are days when it feels like everything is just going to overflow or crumble. I don't know how long I can do this. I don't believe I have ever felt so down before and it's really killing me. Argh..

Monday, December 08, 2008


You Could Be Happy by ~mrsuan on deviantART

I was just listening to the music playing on my handphone when it turned to this track by Snow Patrol. And it reminded me of that day in Plaza Singapura..

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wish I had not said
Are played in loops til it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
Not our last days of silent screaming blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should've stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Just do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
 
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